Thursday, July 22, 2010

Nothing like...

Nothing like sending my ex husband into my house when we're not home...and the house being messy!!!  lol

Had to send him in to get Williams sleeping bag since they're going camping.  William couldn't reach it because it was on the top of his closet, so the ex went in.  

And of course, the dishes weren't done, there was laundry on the floor since I was in the middle of doing it.  I can only imagine what he was thinking, "ha!  She is a horrible housekeeper!"  

Eh, oh well, I just find it humorous that the one time the house is messy, he had to go in.  lol

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

More background...our wedding :)

This is a blog I wrote shortly after Josh and I got married.  Unfortunately, neither of our families were there, but we had our 2 best friends standing by our sides.  We knew that we were getting married rather quickly, but when you know it's right, why wait??  We've already lasted longer than everyone thought we would!  We didn't let negative people, or a deployment tear us apart, and as we always told each other, we came out of the deployment stronger.  No regrets baby :)

Current mood:  loved
January 24, 2008
Driving there was a blur. Walking in and up the grand stairway was done in a flash. Holding onto his hands while we said I do was breathtaking. Everything was over so quickly…I wish I could've held onto it longer. That kiss is one I will hold onto for the rest of my life. I will never forget that feeling I had when he kissed me right after our vows
Standing beside us were our best friends in the whole world. Watching us give our lives to eachother. They've been there since day 1 with Josh and I. They've watched it unfold between us. As Odessaput's so well…I just thought you guys were fucking, I didn't think you'd fall in love! LOL 
There were problems before the ceremony of course…coz what wedding comes off w/out a hitch? Bottom line, we stood there and promised eachother to share our lives together. 
It took a long time for me to find happiness…and TRUE love. I love him like I've never loved before. I have never felt this strongly for someone. He is my heart.
As happy as we were on Saturday night, and as much as we completely enjoyed our time together, in the back of our heads we were plagued w/disappointment. It is so hard to be sooo happy and sooo sad at the same time. We were THRILLED to be married and be having such a good time w/close friends…but we were both sad knowing that we had less than 2 weeks left w/eachother. As much as we tried to not let us affect us on THAT particular day, we both know that it was there. 
On a happier note, I just want all my friends and family to know how much I love this man. How wonderful he is to me. This is it folks. I've found my soulmate…

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Saturday, July 10, 2010

A lil background on Josh and I

Importing this from my live journal.  It was something I wrote when Josh and I first started seeing each other.  I won't go into all the details, but I was coming out of a horrible 6 months - a bad break up, parents moving to Mexico and an attempt at working it out with the ex husband (BIG mistake), and Josh was the light at the end of the tunnel.  I have no regrets :)

18th December, 2007. 7:40 pm. Josh

The one who saved me.  The one who helped me believe in love again.  He's given me a reason to fall again.  It happened completly unexpectally.  He was a friend of a friend, and in my thoughts...way too young for me.  I met him one night, and there was definately a connection, but not one that either of us realized until much later.  He had a girlfriend, I was moving into Billys...we were just aquantinces.

After a few weeks, we started talking on IM, and then the phone.  It was instant.  I wanted to spend more time with him. I didn't want to be at Billy's anymore and I didn't want him to have a girlfriend, I wanted him to be MINE.  He lived 8 hours from me but I didn't care.  I thought of him night and day, I couldn't get him off my mind.

He came up a few weeks later and the minute we saw eachother we knew.  He broke up w/his girlfriend and I moved out of billys that weekend.  It wasn't that hard considering I had only moved in a few weeks before.  It was a mistake I will forever regret.  Josh and I knew that we wanted to be together.  I moved in my best friend and started over.

The the other shoe dropped...

No sooner had he left that he found out he was being deployed.


So he came up again, I went down again, and now he's moved here...

We're going to spend as much time together as possible before he leaves.  Which is like Feb 3rd.  And we're getting married, much to his Mothers dismay.  But I don't care.  I love him.  He's it for me.  I don't care what anyone thinks or says.  I've never felt this way before...complete trust...complete love.  Never...with anyone.  He is everything I ever wanted in someone.  He is amazing.  And sweet.  And beautiful inside and out.  He is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.